Hi! I’m Edmond Lau.

I write to reveal the sacred beauty woven into every corner of the human experience—especially in the places we tend to hide from: our desires, our shame, our deepest longings for love and freedom.

In these pages, you’ll find intimate reflections on sex, fatherhood, awakened partnership, and the mysterious unfolding of what it means to be truly alive. I share stories that are raw, sometimes uncomfortable, and always in service of truth, beauty, and love.

Once a startup engineer in Silicon Valley, I spent years optimizing for effectiveness, productivity, and success — and even wrote a book about it that made over a half million in revenue. But eventually, I realized what I was really yearning for wasn’t a more effective life.

It was a more beautiful one.

Years ago, I left a 17-year sexless relationship (and an 8-year-long marriage) to reclaim my desire and follow what was true. That decision changed the entire course of my life. It led me into deeper intimacy with myself, into a partnership rooted in love and devotion, and into fatherhood—a sacred initiation that continues to open my heart every day.

The turning point came when I stopped following what I should do and started listening to what I truly wanted—not just in my mind, but in my body, in my relationships, and in my soul. I began following aliveness instead of achievement. I walked away from a thriving tech leadership business to devote my life to intimacy, awakening, and the power of desire.

I now see everything—sex, relationship, parenting, even grief and shame—as part of the spiritual journey. Not something to escape, but something to enter more fully. I write from that place. Not to teach or to prove, but to stay in contact with what’s real.

I believe that desire is not something to master—it’s something to follow.
That sex is not something to hide in the shadows.
That shame dissolves in the light of love and truth.
And that beauty isn’t just something we see—it’s something we become when we stop hiding.

This Substack is where I share that unfolding. In real time. As it’s happening.
Not as a performance. But as a practice. A transmission. A devotion.

If something here touches you, I hope you’ll stay.
Because the world doesn’t need more people who living half-lives.
It needs more truth.
More beauty.
More people willing to be fully seen, cracked open, and transformed by love.

An Adventurer at Heart